I don't know where to start from. I have been thinking and thinking about it. There are lot of things i had to say to you. But we both were busy having each other. First i had you for an attitude then you had me as by the rule. It was suppose to be like this. Everyone says so. I want you, but i have to let you go. Its not that i am being selfish. You know that. I can keep you to my grave with me. And you know that. So please don't misunderstand me. You had been always there wherever i go. If someday i missed you, you know how hard i tried to see you again. When i couldn't sleep or afraid of the darkness of my room, i brought you by to accompany me. People cursed me when they saw both of us together. They say we belong to two different world. They say we are not meant for each other. But hey we know, we don't right? You also have been rude with me sometime. You ditched me. Sometime you left me alone when i needed you most. Probably you were there in a shop nearby busy serving some customers and you forgot about me. You burnt me, not once or twice but many times. I can still find some scars on my hand if i look closely. And i don't even dare to have a X Ray of my chest to see how damage you have done inside. Well forget about all these. I don't regret and you know that. You were my choice, my immature decision or whatever you call it. If there is someone to blame its me. I shouldn't have liked you in the first place probably. But I am sorry I have to go now, leave you where you wanted to be, the way you want to be. Everyone says that i shouldn't let you harm me anymore. And i thought i should respect them as well. Free me and forgive me if i am being selfish. Farewell my dear CIGARATEs.